It may not look like it now, but not too long ago I also found myself wondering if I was in some kind of ‘midlife crisis’ – when I started questioning everything about my life.

I’d planned my life out to a tee and had done everything "right"...or so I’d thought. I was in my mid-30s, lived in Orange County, and was blessed with two, beautiful, healthy children, a loving husband, and a great job. On the outside, we looked like any other young family in our neighborhood complete with soccer games and birthday parties. 

But on the inside, I was crumbling...

As much as I loved my family, I had a hole inside that I didn’t know how to fill. I felt consumed with guilt and shame. Shouldn’t I be happy with the picture perfect life I had always thought I’d wanted and worked so hard to get? I knew something had to change, but I was terrified of what others would think. Reinventing yourself in midlife can be a difficult and daunting task, but it's important to remember that you deserve to be happy and fulfilled.

As time went on, the whisper inside my head became a roar asking,

"Who am I?"  "What is my purpose?” "Why am I here?"

I had absolutely no idea. It felt as if my inner light  - already dimming  - was about to be completely snuffed out.

I didn’t want to wake up one day, look at my husband and say, "Who are you? Where have I been for the past 20 years?"

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That prospect motivated me to move through my fear and be brave. I had to figure this out. My life depended on it. I became laser-focused on discovering who I was so I could live my life with intention. Believe me, it wasn’t easy! In fact, I almost lost my marriage over it.